From HIV to Christ
KoHsin’s powerful healing testimony
My name is KoHsin and I was born in Taipei. Taiwan. I was brought up by wonderful parents who were both middle class. My father was born in Kaoshung and my mum was born in the North of Taiwan . Sadly my mum passed away two years ago after fighting the final stage of lung cancer.
Both my parents worked extremely hard at the First Commercial Bank . They provided me with a very good education and up to this day I am deeply grateful for everything my parents did for me.
I was a very insecure child. It was not lack of money, I just felt a lack of love despite my parents’ efforts to provide me with material things . One day when I was aged 15, I walked home from school and I passed a local church, where I heard the beautiful singing worship music inside, so I walked in and sat down at the back and simply listened to the choir. That was the beginning of me going to church.
I didn’t know anything about Jesus Christ . I knew I loved the music, I was attracted to it. I also played the piano so I started attending their fellowship and study group.
When I turned 18 years old I told my parents I wanted to get baptised properly in order to become a Christian . That is exactly what I did. My parents didn’t attend the baptism but all I know is they loved me very much and they respected my decision . Later on, sadly, I failed my university entrance exam (like A levels in UK). As the result my dad asked me what I wanted to do and I prayed and, thank God, my pastor at church recommended me to study at a new Christian University, called Christ College. So I took the exam and successfully enrolled to study Mass Communication and in 2002 I graduated with double Major first Major in Mass Communication, second Major in English .
During four years good education at Christ College I studied the Bible and my teachers were American missionaries. It was a solid foundation of my Christian faith . Now when I look back I am truly grateful for those four years that God helped me to study in a beautiful campus and grow strong in my Christian faith.
After I graduated from college I made up my mind to study abroad, aiming to get a Master’s degree and it took me two years. I asked God’s help and I finally enrolled at Nottingham Trent University in the UK studying Global Journalism. My dream when I was 24 years old was that one day I would work as a BBC journalist. However during my two years studying in the UK ,I completely turned my back on God. I left God completely. I know I am a Christian but I started drinking , trying one night stands and having sexual relationships. I completely left God and was rebellious, like a wild horse doing my own thing .
When I look back I realised deep down how much I needed male attention ! One evening I was invited to a huge Christmas party and a black man invited me to join him. However he had very bad intentions and I ended up being raped by him in the hotel room. He was really drunk and forced me to have sex with him, pushing me against the wall. Afterwards I waited until he passed out in the hotel room and I escaped and ran back home. It was a horrifying experience. Now I look back I thank God I am still alive because it could have been worse. I was only 25-years-old and too scared to report it to the police so a friend advised me to go to see a University doctor and I did . I took the morning-after pill, let the doctor examine my body to make sure everything was ok. After the rape incident I was so damaged and I struggled to trust men.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18
Later I decided to stay in England to finish my degree and in 2006 I met a good man. Now he is my husband, his name is Daniel.
We got married in 2008 in a beautiful hotel in the UK, I thank God he is a good Englishman. Sadly during 2010 I was mentally ill and I ended up rushed to the hospital by ambulance. Eventually I was diagnosed as HIV Positive. That was the result of the rape and I can only describe to you the shock this represented to me as a huge bomb hitting my life. To this day I remembered well my first response knowing I was HIV Positive is to take all the medication in front of me and end my life ! My condition was very serious; the doctors told me I was literally dying. My husband was howling in the hallway and he was also diagnosed as HIV Positive the same week. It was a huge shock and devastated my husband, who thought his wife was going to die. I was in a coma for three days.
My HIV diagnosis was the point when I turned back to God. I suddenly remembered “I am a Christian and I can PRAY !” So I started praying to God to let me survive and my husband was also an angel begging me to live! My six-month stay in the hospital isolation ward was a very dark time of my life but I finally got to go home. One day I heard the clear voice saying “KoHsin come back to me. KoHsin come back to church, I am waiting for you”. I remember there was no one in the living room, I knew it was God’s voice so even though my body was weak I took a taxi and went back to Church. Through many medications, treatment and Christian counselling and church praying friends I came back to life.
The first lesson I learned at church was to forgive the man who raped me, then forgive myself. It was hard for me to do that but I did, through the strength of Jesus Christ. I confessed my sin and I forgave the man and I also forgave myself for being there. It was such a relief from the Lord and now when I look back I know the rape did happen but I got so much healing from the Lord.
I could have died the night I was raped at the hotel. I could have died when I was diagnosed with HIV Positive but I didn’t, by the grace of God ! At the time I completely turned back to God and I was what you call a Lost Sheep. Now I know God loves me, He called me back as a Prodigal Daughter and truly when I look back at my past God’s protection was there!
But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed.
Because I was HIV positive, for years I told myself and my husband that I did NOT want to have a child. My husband and I were both HIV Positive and we were fine for years until the point my husband strongly told me he did want to have a family and he trusted the medical treatment in UK . I really struggled with the idea so I flew back to Taiwan to think and pray! God took me for a Mission trip with Aglow Christian Ladies and on that trip many friends prayed for me to remove my fear and asking the Lord for a sign and confirmation . The first miracle was when I took the experimental drugs and in a very short time my HIV virus dropped from 22,000 to zero on my 36th birthday ! The HIV specialists couldn’t believe what they saw and they told me if I wanted to try for a baby it was the right time. I knew it was a sign from the Lord . Then from July I started trying for a baby and in October I went to a national huge Christian conference in the UK . There were many women there and they prayed for me at the conference in the hotel room and one woman declared she could see a vision that I would have a baby girl. They powerfully prayed for me to let God open my womb so I would conceive a child! I got pregnant in December and the baby was born 11th of August via a C-Section! The pregnancy was very difficult but when I look back now, I knew it was full of Grace. I was put on a specialist team. I remember every single day I put my hand on my tummy praying for the baby and I sang to her. I knew the baby inside me was listening to my voice . The day my child was born the Lord ask me to name her Hannah which means ‘Precious’. She is the biggest miracle because she is HIV negative. Hannah is a miracle and she has been tested many times in UK and every time her result is negative praise the Lord!
Thank you Jesus!. When I turned my back on Him he never gave up on me and when I failed God He never failed me. When I was dying with HIV virus all over my body God saved my life. His grace is sufficient and for 10 years I have experienced a journey of healing Now I know God wants the best for us and He is our Heavenly Father . We get disappointed by people because people can really let us down, but God is faithful and God never lets us down!
My life has been completely transformed by God’s healing power and God told me one night when I was praying, to go out to Testify for His name to the nations so I have been doing that. I give all the Glory to the Lord God and use my testimony to reach many people around the world. So my prayer is that you will turn back to Jesus and start believing in Him. Say the prayer of salvation and let God enter your life.
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God Still Heals Today
Jesus Christ is same yesterday, today, and forever.
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