From HIV to Christ
KoHsin’s Powerful Healing Testimony
My name is KoHsin, and I was born in Taipei, Taiwan. I was brought up by wonderful parents who were both middle class.
My father was born in Kaohsiung, and my mother was born in northern Taiwan. Sadly, my mother passed away two years ago after fighting the final stage of lung cancer.
Both of my parents worked extremely hard at the First Commercial Bank. They provided me with a very good education, and to this day, I am deeply grateful for everything my parents did for me.
I was a very insecure child. It wasn’t a lack of money; I just felt a lack of love despite my parents’ efforts to provide me with material things.
One day, when I was 15, I walked home from school and passed a local church where I heard the beautiful singing worship music inside. So, I walked in, sat down at the back, and simply listened to the choir. That was the beginning of me going to church.
I didn’t know anything about Jesus Christ. I knew I loved the music; I was attracted to it. I also played the piano, so I started attending their fellowship and study group.
When I turned 18 years old, I told my parents I wanted to get baptized properly in order to become a Christian. That is exactly what I did. My parents didn’t attend the baptism, but all I know is they loved me very much and respected my decision.
Later on, sadly, I failed my university entrance exam (like A levels in the UK). As a result, my dad asked me what I wanted to do. I prayed, and thank God, my pastor at church recommended me to study at a new Christian university called Christ College.
So, I took the exam and successfully enrolled to study Mass Communication. In 2002, I graduated with a double major: first major in Mass Communication, second major in English.
During four years of a good education at Christ College, I studied the Bible and my teachers were American missionaries. It was a solid foundation for my Christian faith.
Now when I look back, I am truly grateful for those four years that God helped me to study on a beautiful campus and grow strong in my Christian faith.
After I graduated from college, I made up my mind to study abroad, aiming to get a Master’s degree. It took me two years. I asked God’s help and finally enrolled at Nottingham Trent University in the UK to study Global Journalism.
My dream when I was 24 years old was that one day I would work as a BBC journalist. However, during my two years studying in the UK, I completely turned my back on God. I left God completely. I knew I was a Christian, but I started drinking, trying one-night stands, and having sexual relationships.
I completely left God and was rebellious, like a wild horse doing my own thing.
When I look back, I realized deep down how much I needed male attention! One evening, I was invited to a huge Christmas party, and a black man invited me to join him. However, he had very bad intentions, and I ended up being raped by him in the hotel room. He was really drunk and forced me to have sex with him, pushing me against the wall.
Afterward, I waited until he passed out in the hotel room, escaped, and ran back home. It was a horrifying experience. Now, when I look back, I thank God I am still alive because it could have been worse.
I was only 25 years old and too scared to report it to the police, so a friend advised me to go see a university doctor. I did, took the morning-after pill, and let the doctor examine my body to make sure everything was okay. After the rape incident, I was so damaged and struggled to trust men.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18
Later, I decided to stay in England to finish my degree. In 2006, I met a good man. Now he is my husband, his name is Daniel.
We got married in 2008 at a beautiful hotel in the UK. I thank God he is a good Englishman. Sadly, in 2010, I was mentally ill and ended up being rushed to the hospital by ambulance.
Eventually, I was diagnosed as HIV positive. That was the result of the rape, and I can only describe to you the shock it represented to me as a huge bomb hitting my life.
To this day, I remember well my first response upon knowing I was HIV positive was to take all the medication in front of me and end my life! My condition was very serious; the doctors told me I was literally dying.
My husband was howling in the hallway, and he was also diagnosed as HIV positive the same week. It was a huge shock and devastated my husband, who thought his wife was going to die. I was in a coma for three days.
My HIV diagnosis was the point when I turned back to God. I suddenly remembered “I can pray!” So I started praying to God to let me survive, and my husband was also an angel begging me to live! My six-month stay in the hospital isolation ward was a very dark time of my life, but I finally got to go home.
One day, I heard the clear voice saying “KoHsin, come back to me. KoHsin, come back to church, I am waiting for you.” I remember there was no one in the living room. I knew it was God’s voice, so even though my body was weak, I took a taxi and went back to church. Through many medications, treatment, Christian counseling, and church praying friends, I came back to life.
The first lesson I learned at church was to forgive the man who raped me and then forgive myself. It was hard for me to do that, but I did, through the strength of Jesus Christ. I confessed my sin, forgave the man, and forgave myself for being there. It was such a relief from the Lord, and now when I look back, I know the rape did happen, but I got so much healing from the Lord.
I could have died the night I was raped at the hotel. I could have died when I was diagnosed as HIV positive, but I didn’t, by the grace of God! At the time, I completely turned back to God and was what you call a lost sheep. Now, I know God loves me. He called me back as a prodigal daughter, and truly when I look back at my past, God’s protection was there!
But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed.
Because I was HIV positive, for years I told myself and my husband that I did not want to have a child. My husband and I were both HIV positive, and we were fine for years until the point my husband strongly told me he did want to have a family and trusted the medical treatment in the UK. I really struggled with the idea, so I flew back to Taiwan to think and pray!
God took me on a mission trip with Aglow Christian Ladies, and on that trip, many friends prayed for me to remove my fear and asked the Lord for a sign and confirmation.
The first miracle was when I took the experimental drugs, and in a very short time, my HIV virus dropped from 22,000 to zero on my 36th birthday! The HIV specialists couldn’t believe what they saw and told me if I wanted to try for a baby, it was the right time. I knew it was a sign from the Lord.
Then, from July, I started trying for a baby, and in October, I went to a national huge Christian conference in the UK. There were many women there, and they prayed for me at the conference in the hotel room. One woman declared she could see a vision that I would have a baby girl. They powerfully prayed for me to let God open my womb so I would conceive a child! I got pregnant in December, and the baby was born on August 11th via a C-section!
The pregnancy was very difficult, but when I look back now, I know it was full of grace. I was put on a specialist team. I remember every single day I put my hand on my tummy, praying for the baby and singing to her. I knew the baby inside me was listening to my voice.
The day my child was born, the Lord asked me to name her Hannah, which means “precious.” She is the biggest miracle because she is HIV negative. Hannah is a miracle, and she has been tested many times in the UK, and every time her result is negative. Praise the Lord!
Thank you, Jesus! When I turned my back on Him, He never gave up on me. And when I failed God, He never failed me.
When I was dying with the HIV virus all over my body, God saved my life. His grace is sufficient, and for 10 years, I have experienced a journey of healing.
Now I know God wants the best for us, and He is our Heavenly Father. We get disappointed by people because people can really let us down, but God is faithful and God never lets us down!
My life has been completely transformed by God’s healing power. One night, when I was praying, God told me to go out and testify for His name to the nations, so I have been doing that.
I give all the glory to the Lord God and use my testimony to reach many people around the world. So my prayer is that you will turn back to Jesus and start believing in Him. Say the prayer of salvation and let God enter your life.
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